That is the question I have been asking myself for a long long week. Last Thursday my boyfriend coerced me into sitting down and listening to a podcast. Now I am going to let it be known right now that I find podcasts utterly mind numbingly boring, without sounding completely moronic, where are the pictures? This Thursday podcast was called Serial, the boyfriend enticed me with promises of a dodgy murder conviction, something that I would become completely fixated on. I had my doubts. I am in no way going to claim to have ‘discovered’ this ever growing podcast, I very much jumped on the bandwagon. But what an interesting bandwagon it is.
Serial basically is following the story of Adnan Syed, a now 33 year old man that 15 years ago was convicted of killing his ex-girlfriend Hae Min Lee. This convinction occurred simply because of one man, maybe I should say boys, testimony. Jay. No DNA evidence, no other witnesses, just this one kids story. Jay is the person that I think about the most, who would trust the words of a young pot dealer? The first episode had me mildly gripped, I like a good murder mystery and to me that is what this was. But now after listening to 7 episodes this is so much more.
I need and I literally mean need to know if Adnan Syed killed her. Throughout this podcast, which is wonderfully done Sarah Koenig, you hear many phone conversions that her and Adnan have had. They are wonderfully gripping. My first instinct was this guy doesn’t sound like a killer, surely he didn’t do it? I know, I know, what does a killer sound like? I guess I was expecting something more menacing and inherently evil about him but that is not what I got. He genuinely sounds like a nice guy. As a type this I know how stupid I sound, and Sarah does to, she often says exactly what I am thinking.
I honestly don’t know if Adnan is guilty and I don’t know if I ever will, which I am not sure I am ok with. All I know is that this podcast has overwhelmed my life. Without being too overdramatic I have spent nearly all my waking time googling this case. I have never been on Reddit in my life, until yesterday (what a blackhole that place is!). I have read hundreds, if not thousands of posts and comments about this case and I am still no closer to reaching a decision in my head. This podcast has literally gripped me like nothing ever has and my beauty blog probably isn’t the right arena for this post but this is my little tiny section of the internet and I am going to post whatever I want to talk about here.
If you haven’t listened to this podcast yet I really strongly urge you to. It is thought provoking, entertaining and above all obsessive. I don’t know what the purpose of this post was, it isn’t to promote the show but simply to put exactly what I am thinking somewhere other than whishing around my brain.